just show up.

I wrote yesterday about an unexpected setback that’s landed in my lap this holiday season and sure, I’ve been pretty down about it if we’re being honest.

I don’t really have any idea how long recovery is going to take or what running’s gonna look like when I return to it, and I sort of downward spiral into anxiety and worry when I focus too hard on the unknowns here.

So I was texting with my personal trainer yesterday about the sitch and she was like “just come in tomorrow at your normal time and let’s do what we can.”

Listen, guys. This injury happened on the 21st. That’s like 10 solid days of all-day-pajama-wearing-couch-laying-wine-drinking-pity-partying. I wasn’t even sure if I could find shoes to put on, let alone remember how to start the car.

And 6:00 in the a.m. is really early, and it was all icy and stuff.

But still, my trainer was expecting me and it would be more embarrassing to bail on her than to hobble into the gym with crutches and a look of “what now?”

I made it in, begrudgingly. I felt dumb and incompetent and like I was totally starting over and was sure I looked like a newborn giraffe on roller-skates but still. I did some stuff. For 30 minutes I tried my hardest. The self-doubt was still sitting right there. The insecurities of how I looked hobbling around the gym didn’t go away.

But I showed up.

ShowUp

I’m not huge on New Year’s resolutions per se, but I do like to set some mindful intentions for the coming year.

In 2016, I’d like to make an effort to just

SHOW UP.

to the gym (or trail).
with my family.
to my friendships.
…even to my deadlines.
to life.

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What would you like to focus on in 2016? I’d love to hear from you.

Run on, friends!

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6 Responses to just show up.

  1. Mom says:

    Proud of you, Baby girl!

  2. Steve says:

    Thanks for the reminder. It is so hard to stay positive when an aspect of who you are is taken from you. Hoping for a full recovery for you. Keep showing up!

  3. Erin says:

    I’m proud of you, too. HNY!

  4. Janet says:

    So glad to see you there this morning!!!

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